Overcoming Fears and Obstacles
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Today I feel blessed to have experienced unexpected changes in my life... things that I never thought I would do. Places I thought I would never see. Things that I never thought I could handle. People I would have never met. Sometimes we think we have our life all figured out and The Lord throws us a curve ball. I think we can all get in a comfort zone and become afraid of change. Change is a good thing. We all need to mix it up every once in a while...
I am Alabama born and raised. I went to school with the same people for 13 years. I went to college with some of my best friends. Back home, I can go to the grocery store and see at least 5 people I know and usually many more than that. I worked at Winn-Dixie in Childersburg all through High School and College. Pretty much my whole family lives in that area or within 40 miles. We had a beautiful home in Alabama. We had a Siberian Husky that we loved dearly. We had plenty of house to welcome our new bundle of joy...
Our "plans" quickly changed. We moved to Oklahoma in October of 2011. 670 miles. Let me just tell you, I am a Momma's baby. I love my sisters and I was leaving behind my best friend. It was hard. I cried a lot. The first several months were bad. I was pregnant but we had not told anyone yet. I was sick...constantly. Nausea/ vomiting around the clock. Josh was out of town a lot in the beginning. I wasn't working yet. I just wanted to crawl in a hole and disappear.
I started a new job the end of November. I feel so blessed to have met several good friends through this job. One in particular, Tiffany, has helped me so much. She has been such a blessing to me. She said after she first met me that, "I was going to be her friend, I just didn't know it yet!" We bonded right off the bat. She has made me feel so comfortable here and I feel like I've known her for years. I think God places certain people in your life at just the right time.
New house + new town + 1st pregnancy + husband gone all the time= a very sad and depressed Brynn. You can't just hop in the car and drive home to see family. We are talking a 12 hour drive. We finally told our families that I was pregnant the end of November. I was so glad to be able to at least talk to my Mom over the phone about things. I just wanted my Momma. Although talking to her on the phone was nice, nothing can replace actually seeing her, face to face. I wanted her to see my growing belly. I wanted to go shopping with her for baby stuff. I needed support. We had tried to get pregnant for so long. It finally happened and we moved nearly 700 miles away. (I found out I was pregnant 6 days before the moving truck came to pack up my whole house) I only saw my Momma 3 times during my whole pregnancy. We lived by picture texts of my belly and videos of my ultrasounds sent via text message.
My Mom was able to stay for a week after I delivered Eli. I will never forget taking her to the airport. That was the worst goodbye. Here I was with a new baby and I felt so clueless about how to care for him. I needed my Momma, but guess what? I survived. I took care of sweet Eli just fine. It wasn't easy, but I did it. Another fear conquered.
Although this has not always been easy, I feel very blessed that The Lord chose us for this journey. I think it has taught me so much. I feel closer to Josh. I feel like I am easier to come out of my shell and talk to people that I don't know well. I had to completely start my life over here. New house, new job, new friends...but again, I did it. I have embraced a different culture. It's not "coke" here it's "pop." It's not a "buggy" it's a shopping cart. Mexican food is very Tex-Mex here. People do not talk with that Southern drawl that I am so used to. In ways it's a different way of life, but it is our life and I am loving every minute of it. I don't know if some people could be up for a challenge like this. We have conquered it. We love Oklahoma. Our son was born here. It will always hold a special place in our hearts. I'm so glad that we conquered fears of the unknown and just jumped right in...that is a very special blessing.
|6/8/12 The day we met our sweet Eli for the first time!|
|My sweet Mommy with Eli|
|My sweet friend, Tiffany!|